Goddamn it has been awhile.
I've been living in NYC for nine months now (w/ breaks) and it's good.
[redacted] and I broke up in Feb the day after Valentine's day. Things weren't the same after she got back from [redacted], she had more mental problems and we grew apart. What really did it for me though is she just seemed to lose a lot of her passion, I'm not sure if it was a health thing- depression is a bitch like that - but she didn't, idk, care in the same way anymore. Went on a bit of a sexual binge here but honestly not too happy with it, I don't like the casual relationships that seem to proliferate here that much.
I deleted dating apps in August. Had a bit of a manic thing and partied for like two weeks straight while on the west coast, then had a super intense texting stage situationship thing with this very pretty girl from the city (obviously didn't work out), overall I just need a fucking break.
My best friend moved to NYC and I've made some new friends, I've grown so much more confident since moving here honestly.
I want to go harder this year. It's time to really lock-in on this shit. I think I'm ready.
I've developed a new uber-fixation on health issues. Really that's all that matters to me now, working with [redacted] on [redacted] and on [redacted] with [redacted] to conquer fucking biology and help resolve this fucked up social thing most of the country has got going on.
Going to delete my twitter and come back with a new name eventually. Maybe do something w TikTok or instagram too pushing the health stuff I'm researching, idk we'll see.